Two Tears In A Bucket, Fuck It!

Getting over the douche. Getting back to happy.
I don’t give no fucks.

I don’t give no fucks.

It is what it is!

It is what it is!

Hahahahah

Hahahahah

When a guy sweeps you off your feet… he’s in the perfect position to drop you on your ass.

—Some Really Smart Bitch

86 Bitterness.

When I first started this blog, like… a month ago.   I was mad.  Really mad.  I saw the ex over the weekend… and it was like a punch in the gut.  It was like reconnecting and breaking up all over again.  And sadness followed.  For me, anger is much easier to deal with than sadness.  Anger means you can do things, and not give a shit.  It’s almost like you can do REALLY dumb shit, and justify it.  Being sad.  Well. I don’t feel like doing anything.
With the disappearance of the crazy, angry girl, I guess bitterness left as well.  I can think a little more clearly and even see things from his point of view.  But I’ve also had to realize that I’ve lost my best friend.  I’ve lost the happiest and healthiest relationship I have ever been in.  It’s a big pill to swallow.  But it’s a step in the right direction.  

Lee Brice - That’s When You Know It’s Over

It’s been a little over a month since single happened.  And this song is perfect.  I can finally listen to a song and not think of him.  I can listen to HIS songs and not want to curl up into a ball or punch him in the throat.  Just happily indifferent.  It’s a good feeling.

Boom!

Boom!

Ipod (His).

Sooooo I may or may not have done something kind of bitchy.  By kind of bitchy.  I mean I did something totally bitchy.  But whatever, I got dumped over email.  All is fair.  
So I still have some of my ex’s things.  We haven’t gotten around to exchanging stuff since he lives in a different state.  I offered to ship it, but he said he has to come back here anyway…  rambling…  anyway.  
His iPod.  The boy loves his music.  It’s actually one of the things we have in common…  a huge appreciation and love of music.  So I still have his iPod(1 of 3) and I decided to clear it out and leave him a special playlist full of “those” songs.  Here are the first 21 (out of a lot…  he has a 7 hour drive home!  I know…  I’m like super considerate!):

  1. That’s What You Get - Paramore
  2. I’m Drinkin’ Again - Corey Smith
  3. Liar - Mumford and Sons
  4. Stubborn Love - The Lumineers
  5. Carefree Highway - Anarbor
  6. Love Don’t Live Here Anymore - Lady Antebellum
  7. I Pray For You - Jaron and The Long Road To Love
  8. How Quick You Forget - Eli Young Band
  9. Perfectly Lonely - John Mayer
  10. Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
  11. I’m Not Calling You A Liar - Florence and The Machine
  12. Don’t Believe Everything You Think - Lee Brice
  13. All That Shit Is Gone - Carolina Liar
  14. She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
  15. Dumb Girls - Lucy Woodward
  16. Pieces Don’t Fit Anymore - James Morrison
  17. Every Lie (Acoustic) - My Darkest Days
  18. Learning to Love Again - Mat Kearney
  19. Hell On Heels - Pistol Annies
  20. Irreplacable - Beyonce
  21. Over It - Katharine McPhee